Plodding on..

Nothing exciting to report which is good. Both babies continue to be stable, with Joe needing more support than Harry.

Yesterday Joe's cannula in his hand stopped working which he needs for his insulin so the dr came to put a new one in. I was with Harry when she started, and by the time I got to Joe he was so sad and really crying so I held him by putting one hand on his body and the other on his head which settled him. She tried SIX times before she got one in that worked. I know it's necessary and there is no way to get round having to do it but each time she stuck the needle in him I'd feel his body flinch. I hate that they are experiencing so much pain and there is very little I can do to help them. They have morphine to keep them settled but there is no getting away from their discomfort sometimes.

Travelling in to the hospital every day is exhausting but the time passes so quickly once I am there. No sooner have I arrived, than it's time for me to leave again. Leaving them is still awful and I suspect will only get harder as they become more aware of what's happening. I'm still unsure whether to have them transferred back to Poole when they are bigger. It would be nice to have them closer, but it would mean a whole new set of nurses to get used to, a whole new set of germs they'd be exposed to etc. It's likely to be a long time before that happens anyway as they like the babies to be breathing with no mechanical support and we are a long way from that happening at the moment.