Things are still stable with both babies. They aren't really making much progress, but aren't having any set-backs either. The good news is that both are growing well and they are weighing in at 1lb 10oz each now. Joe's ventilator settings are gradually increasing which isn't great but the doctors are keeping an eye on him and have other options to try if needed.
On Wednesday I had my first proper out-of-the-incubator cuddle with Harry. They were changing his incubator for a clean one so I got to hold him on my lap while they did it. He was laying on his mattress, on my lap, but it was so lovely. He isn't generally keen on being handled but he coped really well and his oxygen levels stayed high so he obviously enjoyed it. He was awake for a lot of the time, looking up at me and I had to try really hard not to cry. I didn't want his first cuddle spoiled by me being an emotional wreck. The nurses took a picture of us which I will scan in and post in the next couple of days.
The other big news is that I have decided to try living back home full time and driving in to the hospital daily to see them. It's hard being away from the babies but I know they are in good hands and I have to try and get the balance right between being with them and still spending time with my other children. I've hardly seen them for the last month and feel like I am losing touch with day-to-day activities at home.
This weekend the babies will be a month old. I can't believe it, it has flown by.